I know a lot of people have said this, and I know I have said it before, but this is a whole new level.
I am okay with being single.
I think before I wanted to believe it or just allowed myself to be “busy” to mask my actual feeling of loneliness. For the longest time, I had it rooted and engraved in my mind that if I was single that meant I was lonely.
This is not the case.
I am not lonely. Something has changed inside me, and I no longer feel loneliness because I am TRULY and COMPLETELY 100% involved with God, and that is ENOUGH for me.
Sure, I have my weaknesses, and I miss the past sometimes, but I do not regret it. Within the past year and a half, I have grown so much in life and with God. I wouldn’t trade that for anything.
It may sound crazy or impossible… to be okay. To those I would say, I have been there. No matter how much I would try to give my “single” situation to God, I would still have this expectation, and I was still waiting for something to solve my problem. I wanted results, and I wanted them now.
My singleness isn’t a problem for God to fix.
My one and only relationship that I need to care about is with God. He wants me to pursue Him, seek His face, and know Him. And I want Him to know me. Right now, I am more satisfied with my life than I ever have been because that’s all I want… God and Me.
That’s all I ever needed.
Psalm 52:8 (NIV)
8 But I am like an olive tree
flourishing in the house of God;
I trust in God’s unfailing love
for ever and ever.